My second week of being celibate

Whew! We made it to week 2 💓

This is the burning question, how do I feel?

I know some might think that being 2 weeks celibate is not a big deal. But to me, it is, especially when I haven’t done this before. Being a woman in a relationship it never occurred to me to let my vagina take a break. Appreciate her and let her breathe. Speak affirmations of love into her.

Think of the moment when you actually thought about your yoni, talked to her, spoke gratitude to her, gave her some TLC (waxing, a vagacial, a steam).

So the answer to my question is this: I feel empowered! Empowered because I stood by my word and followed through!!!! I have self-respect and a new profound awareness about me and my yoni. I’m starting to feel like a woman that’s embracing her power. And I’m so happy that I AM claiming this energy. (Pic from NaturallyNerdChic @Pinterest)

I have been so hard on myself most of my life. The words I would use to describe my tense behavior would be “TIGHTEN UP” & “FOCUS”. I wanted to climb the ladder and achieve so much because I felt like that was the only way that I was valued or seen. And quickly this manifested stress, anxiety, fear, self-doubt, and lack of self-worth. I was truly LOST. I thought I knew who I was & what I wanted but my reality was false. And I truly believe this leads to mind, body, and spirit being disconnected from one another.

When the pandemic hit my world was knocked down. I was forced to have a reality check. I was so “go go go” all the time that I didn’t even stop and ask myself what I wanted. During the pandemic, it helped me get back to myself. Clear out all the clutter internally and externally. I could finally see clearly now. Started changing what I was eating, watching, and who I was hanging around with. I started listening to the voice that was within me instead of silencing her. When I started doing this, I started to notice my yoni. Everything started to click. (Pic from Narphiart @Pinterest)

The more I was chasing after validation from others the more I was disconnected from myself and my yoni.

I realized that some of the people around me wanted the best for me but my environment wasn't healthy. Since I was desperate for validation from others I would do a lot of accomplishments to fulfill that high of validating my ego. It became everything to me. At the time I didn’t know what it was. I thought I actually wanted these extracurricular activities for my success. But to tell you the truth if I could go back I would do it all differently…

I wouldn’t have gone to college and I would have taken myself out of the BOX that I was put into. The validation of others was addicting and once I went to college oh booyyy did I feel crippled. I still got some recognition but my spirit was not happy at all. It took a while, but it came to a point where I didn’t care about validation. I just wanted to get out of that shitty box and do ME!

Thank you so much for reading my 2nd blog article!

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Until next week,

Peace and Love <3